my best guy friend just got engaged

and i was the last to know.

he said he tried to tell me personally before he told everyone but i seemed too busy.

i feel bad that he didn't tell me first, now i feel more bad that i didn't have time for him.

now i know the reason why i've been thinking about him for the past few days. why i felt there was an urgency to meet him even if his text messages just said 'san k?' or 'kape tayo'. and i ignored it because i was too damn busy or too damn tired. damn it.

when will i ever listen to my instincts? when???

on a different note, i am happy for him. though he and his girlfriend have only been together for less than a year, i somehow felt that this girl might be the one for him. she seemed to fit just right. and i was right about her. amazing how i even advised him to please not break her heart when i haven't even met her yet then.

but then again, i realize that chats over coffee, dinner or drinks will never be the same... soon there'll be no one info-loading me about movies, music or anything art related (he's actually started doing that when they started going out, a sign that she's really the one...), no one to drag to get-togethers where i need a male companion just so i won't be bugged about my status, no one to bug for one-on-one sessions over coffee.

i know he'll still be there for me and i know she'll be there for me too. but some things will have to change. it's inevitable.


i'll miss your company, bez. but i'm glad i'll miss you for the best and most wonderful reason.


cheers to you both! :)


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i'm happy seeing them together tonight. they look and feel right together. it's the first time i saw them as an engaged couple. and it was fun.

maybe i'm wrong. maybe things don't have to change at all. maybe it's all in the great plan.

all i know is i love them both :)