i signed up for this from the very beginning. i knew it was gonna hurt bad if it ended, though i didn't know how bad it was gonna get. but i had hope. i thought i had reason to hope.

after you, i thought i already coped. i thought i was getting along fine. and partly, it was the hope that sustained me.

i only found out some part of the truth now. my hope was crushed two years ago.

and now it hurts like hell.

two years after.