coffee and jealousy

you almost pissed me off that weekend when we were supposed to have coffee.

and i tried not to expect anything anymore. i tried not to mind it.

funny how you made it up to me the next day.

i was so glad you saw me that day coz i knew you'd be surprised at how i looked. was i pretty for you that day, sniffer?

i knew i was.

***

you thought that what i was supposed to give you was the news that we will be anticipating something soon.

was it just me or did that look in your eyes really gave a glimmer of disappointment when i said that we weren't?

you made a joke about that risk. you said you tried to make it happen.

sniffer, deep inside, i tried too. i was hopeful too. even for just a bit. even if we weren't ready.

***

it was your mom's birthday that day. i was happy you wanted to make her feel special by giving her flowers. that was so sweet of you.

***

there was a little flip in my heart whenever you called me dear in front of other people, even people we didn't know.

and when you asked for my opinion on the shirts you were buying... i felt like a girlfriend. i had a giddy feeling, just like a little girl.

the sweet little things you do and say really make me happy, sniffer. i appreciate it a lot.

***

you asked me to have coffee again the next day. since it was a rare opportunity for us, i agreed to go.

but you made me so jealous. you even had to use my friend to make me feel so jealous!

why sniffer? why?!

and you laughed while i was reacting! you were having a grand time making me feel jealous!

i can't understand you.

***

there is one more thing though.

you weren't so sweet anymore. it felt like i was with a friend that day, just a friend.

it was a complete turnaround.

i don't understand.


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