breakfast. kisses. and sniffs

i was really touched when you thought of having breakfast with me last week, sniffer.

even if our work schedule didn't agree, you even thought of having breakfast because you knew it was the only time that we'd be able to meet up.

i felt like you really missed me already.

but the breakfast didn't push through.

it made me sad. did it make you sad?

***

i asked to see you last weekend. you were at work yet you agreed to see me even if you were already tired. i appreciate that.

but when we met up, you were so distant. i don't understand it.

again, i felt that feeling of disconnection, that feeling of just being friends.

don't get me wrong. i'm glad that we are friends. but it was way too casual. way too casual for two people who are supposed to be "dating".

i guess i got so used to you being so sweet and so affectionate in the beginning.

and, now, are you withdrawing it?

***

i asked you if you missed me.

i was just waiting for simple answer, that you did.

but you gave me a sarcastic answer. and i started to get scared.

***

i told you you were becoming a bit distant lately, and you couldn't answer me.

you just whined, laughed and told me we'll just have coffee one of these days.

i felt more scared.

***

when you brought me home, i asked for a hug. twice. i couldn't feel you.

and then i kissed you. on the lips.

and it broke my heart.

because i didn't feel you at all, sniffer.

i didn't feel you respond.

***

why is this happening?

sniffer, please don't break my heart.

at least not this way.


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