weary

sniffer, please take care of yourself.

your job demands so much of you that i sometimes feel guilty asking for a bit of your time. i know you need to focus on this because you like what you're doing. but the workload they give you... if only they know how much value you put in what you do so they give you what's due you.

sometimes i wonder if i get in the way of your work and your rest time. i hope, somehow, i get to be your relief at the end of your stressful day at work whenever we see each other.

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i rushed to see you last night, sniffer. i was so worried. i didn't want you to go home alone while you weren't feeling well. that's how much i care for you.

when i got inside your car i was so worried. and then i saw the look in your eyes. it confused me. what were you thinking? were you surprised that i rushed to see you? did you think that i couldn't? or did you think that i really shouldn't have?

but when you hugged me, i knew and felt that you were grateful i was there. i knew that you needed me and that your guards were slowly ripped down. and you couldn't admit it because you were scared.

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funny how i came from a talk about love languages that night, sniffer.

i think i wanna find out what our love language is. and if we have the same love language. i'm excited to find out. i hope you will be too.

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when can i call you mine, sniffer? until when will i wait? when will you not be scared anymore? i hope not another 10 years. i hope not forever.

i hope we stop wasting time and be together soon.


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