a couple of days down and we'll be the same age.
though i'm excited, i also dread that day.
because i know i will call you.
and i'm scared of what the answer might be.
i hope i hear your voice.
and not some reject or unanswered call tone.
.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
...
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot, ay di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
- migraine
by moonstar88
***
i used to sing this to you.
you just didn't hear it.
.
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Yung tipong ang sagot, ay di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
- migraine
by moonstar88
***
i used to sing this to you.
you just didn't hear it.
.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
MAKE WISHES COME TRUE WITH “SILVER BELLS” CHRISTMAS CONCERT AT THE PEN 2008
“SILVER BELLS”
SILVER ANNIVERSARY MARKS CHRISTMAS CONCERT AT THE PEN 2008
DECEMBER 13, 2008
As that old Christmas standard goes “It’s the most joyous time of the year”, and that feeling of joy is never better heralded than when the first soaring overtures of “SILVER BELLS, Christmas Concert at the Pen” ring out in the lofty Lobby of The Peninsula Manila which this year marks the silver anniversary of this much-loved holiday season event that doubles as the hotel’s gift to the community.
Fittingly, flying in from Milan specifically to conduct the concert that this year is slated for December 13 from 5:00 PM – 7:00 PM is Maestro Ruggero Barbieri who has been weaving his baton at the hugely popular “Christmas Concert at the Pen” since December 1997 – just a year after taking up his appointment as Music Director and Principal Guest Conductor of the Philppine Philharmonic Orchestra.
Recalls Maestro Barbieri: “At the beginning, I was very hesitant because of the venue which at first I thought was inappropriate for a traditional concert. But I was immediately captivated by the magical atmosphere that the concert itself creates so wonderfully announcing that its Christmas time in Manila.”
This year the concert – which will feature much loved music from classical favorites to Yuletide standards culminating with the glorious “Hallelujah Chorus” from Handel’s Messiah – will showcase a galaxy of world-class Filipino performers comprising the internationally-lauded Philippine Philharmonic Orchestra (PPO), critically-acclaimed sopranos Rachelle Gerodias and Camille Lopez-Molina, renowned Germany-based tenor Abdul Candao and multi award-winning University of the Philippines Concert Chorus (UPCC).
Making the event possible as co-sponsors are The Peninsula Manila and Stores Specialists, Inc. (SSI) which is the pioneering purveyor of many famous American, British and European luxury designer labels in the Philippines. Another co-sponsor is the widely popular magazine, Philippine Tatler, (whose publisher Irene Martel Francisco has also been a mainstay of this event in recent years) and the unfailingly cooperative Cultural Center of the Philippines (CCP) that sees events like this as an extension of its brief to bring music to a wider audience.
Since Christmas is a time of giving, especially when it comes to children, The Peninsula Manila Peninsula has decided to break from tradition and this year will charge all concertgoers PHP490+++ (consumable with selections from a special merienda menu), with 50 percent of the proceeds going to Make-A-Wish Foundation® which grants the wishes of children with life-threatening illnesses.
The charity is the largest wish-granting organization in the world, with offices in 30 countries on five continents. With the help of generous donors and more than 25,000 volunteers, Make-A-Wish Foundation® has granted more than 130,000 wishes to children around the world since 1980.
“The Peninsula Manila is proud to support Make-A-Wish Foundation®,” said Jonathan H. Crook, General Manager of The Peninsula Manila. “We have had a long relationship with Make-A-Wish Foundation® but wanted to continue and expand this tradition of charitable giving at our hotel that would involve our staff, guests and visitors. The Christmas Concert at The Pen – as well as the Peninsula-wide Trees of Hope campaign – is designed to add beauty to the hotel both musically, physically and spiritually, and to enrich the lives of the children touched by the Make-A-Wish Foundation® this Christmas season.”
Throughout its 25-year-history, “Christmas Concert at the Pen” has missed only one performance and this was a result of the events that followed September 11th 2001. But in 2003, Stores Specialists Inc. President Nedy Tantoco approached David Batchelor who was then general manager of The Peninsula Manila and persuaded him to revive the landmark Christmas event with the PPO performing. SSI has co-sponsored the concert ever since. (As a Board of Trustees of the CCP, Ms. Tantoco’s special mission is the PPO, in particular the drive to equip the orchestra with new instruments.)
So in its 25th anniversary year, “SILVER BELLS, Christmas Concert at The Pen” will serve the dual purpose of accentuating the joy of the festive season with the music of the Philippine Philharmonic Orchestra and sharing its blessings with the wards of Make-A-Wish Foundation® .
As parting words of advice, Peninsula Manila General Manager Jonathan H. Crook adds: “Since the concert is quite popular, it would be wise to come early to secure a good seat”.
SILVER ANNIVERSARY MARKS CHRISTMAS CONCERT AT THE PEN 2008
DECEMBER 13, 2008
As that old Christmas standard goes “It’s the most joyous time of the year”, and that feeling of joy is never better heralded than when the first soaring overtures of “SILVER BELLS, Christmas Concert at the Pen” ring out in the lofty Lobby of The Peninsula Manila which this year marks the silver anniversary of this much-loved holiday season event that doubles as the hotel’s gift to the community.
Fittingly, flying in from Milan specifically to conduct the concert that this year is slated for December 13 from 5:00 PM – 7:00 PM is Maestro Ruggero Barbieri who has been weaving his baton at the hugely popular “Christmas Concert at the Pen” since December 1997 – just a year after taking up his appointment as Music Director and Principal Guest Conductor of the Philppine Philharmonic Orchestra.
Recalls Maestro Barbieri: “At the beginning, I was very hesitant because of the venue which at first I thought was inappropriate for a traditional concert. But I was immediately captivated by the magical atmosphere that the concert itself creates so wonderfully announcing that its Christmas time in Manila.”
This year the concert – which will feature much loved music from classical favorites to Yuletide standards culminating with the glorious “Hallelujah Chorus” from Handel’s Messiah – will showcase a galaxy of world-class Filipino performers comprising the internationally-lauded Philippine Philharmonic Orchestra (PPO), critically-acclaimed sopranos Rachelle Gerodias and Camille Lopez-Molina, renowned Germany-based tenor Abdul Candao and multi award-winning University of the Philippines Concert Chorus (UPCC).
Making the event possible as co-sponsors are The Peninsula Manila and Stores Specialists, Inc. (SSI) which is the pioneering purveyor of many famous American, British and European luxury designer labels in the Philippines. Another co-sponsor is the widely popular magazine, Philippine Tatler, (whose publisher Irene Martel Francisco has also been a mainstay of this event in recent years) and the unfailingly cooperative Cultural Center of the Philippines (CCP) that sees events like this as an extension of its brief to bring music to a wider audience.
Since Christmas is a time of giving, especially when it comes to children, The Peninsula Manila Peninsula has decided to break from tradition and this year will charge all concertgoers PHP490+++ (consumable with selections from a special merienda menu), with 50 percent of the proceeds going to Make-A-Wish Foundation® which grants the wishes of children with life-threatening illnesses.
The charity is the largest wish-granting organization in the world, with offices in 30 countries on five continents. With the help of generous donors and more than 25,000 volunteers, Make-A-Wish Foundation® has granted more than 130,000 wishes to children around the world since 1980.
“The Peninsula Manila is proud to support Make-A-Wish Foundation®,” said Jonathan H. Crook, General Manager of The Peninsula Manila. “We have had a long relationship with Make-A-Wish Foundation® but wanted to continue and expand this tradition of charitable giving at our hotel that would involve our staff, guests and visitors. The Christmas Concert at The Pen – as well as the Peninsula-wide Trees of Hope campaign – is designed to add beauty to the hotel both musically, physically and spiritually, and to enrich the lives of the children touched by the Make-A-Wish Foundation® this Christmas season.”
Throughout its 25-year-history, “Christmas Concert at the Pen” has missed only one performance and this was a result of the events that followed September 11th 2001. But in 2003, Stores Specialists Inc. President Nedy Tantoco approached David Batchelor who was then general manager of The Peninsula Manila and persuaded him to revive the landmark Christmas event with the PPO performing. SSI has co-sponsored the concert ever since. (As a Board of Trustees of the CCP, Ms. Tantoco’s special mission is the PPO, in particular the drive to equip the orchestra with new instruments.)
So in its 25th anniversary year, “SILVER BELLS, Christmas Concert at The Pen” will serve the dual purpose of accentuating the joy of the festive season with the music of the Philippine Philharmonic Orchestra and sharing its blessings with the wards of Make-A-Wish Foundation® .
As parting words of advice, Peninsula Manila General Manager Jonathan H. Crook adds: “Since the concert is quite popular, it would be wise to come early to secure a good seat”.
Monday, November 24, 2008
still no escape
i was on vacation.
i wasn't thinking about you.
not at all.
but your name just had to follow me there.
on a boat.
and then i had a dream about you again.
just before i woke up for that island trip i was so looking forward to.
the feeling of uncertainty about you was evident in my dream.
the same feeling i had when i was seeing you.
***
on my way to the island
the waves were so strong
they splashed sea water on my face.
they tried to wash off my tears.
it didn't deserve to reach and land on
my beautiful island.
.
i wasn't thinking about you.
not at all.
but your name just had to follow me there.
on a boat.
and then i had a dream about you again.
just before i woke up for that island trip i was so looking forward to.
the feeling of uncertainty about you was evident in my dream.
the same feeling i had when i was seeing you.
***
on my way to the island
the waves were so strong
they splashed sea water on my face.
they tried to wash off my tears.
it didn't deserve to reach and land on
my beautiful island.
.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Watch Hairspray and Make wishes come true!
Dear Volunteers and Friends of Make A Wish Philippines,The Broadway Musical HAIRSPRAY is playing in Manila!
On November 28, Friday, catch Hairspray and help Make A Wish Philippines grant wishes! Through one of our volunteers, a portion of every ticket sold through Make A Wish will be going to the foundation and its efforts to grant the wishes of children with life-threatening illnesses. Great musical and a great way to help MAW-P!
If you're interested or have friends who'd like to watch, please email Aina Lim at ains_wish@yahoo.com and she'll coordinate with Ria Go, our volunteer who's handling ticket sales for Hairspray's Nov.28 show. Details are below:
Show date: November 28, 2008 (Friday)
Show time: 8:00 p.m.
Venue: Star Theater, CCP Complex
Ticket prices: P600, P800, P1000, P1200
Directed by Bobby Garcia
You can view the seat plan at this link: www.tinyurl.com/hairspray118
Hope to see you there! And once again, thank you for Sharing the Power of a Wish!
-*-
Hairspray is about Tracy who wins a spot on the local TV dance program The Corny Collins Show. The big girl with big hair and big dreams becomes a teen celebrity overnight. Soon Tracy finds herself pitted against the show's reigning princess for the title Miss Teenage Hairspray 1962. Based on the John Waters film, Hairspray is the winner of 8 Tony awards including Best Musical. It was recently made into a hit film starring John Travolta, Michelle Pfeiffer and Queen Latifah.
Hairspray is directed by Bobby Garcia, choreography by Cecile Martinez, sets and costumes by Gino Gonzales, and lighting design by Shoko Matsumoto... (from Philstar.com)
Cast includes:
* Madel Ching as Tracy Turnblad - The cute, "pleasantly plump" teenager, who dreams of fame and fights to racially integrate The Corny Collins Show
* Tim Espinosa as Link Larkin - A teen heartthrob and one of The Corny Collins Show Council Members
* Noel Rayos as Corny Collins - The eccentric and cocky host of The Corny Collins Show
* Michael de Mesa as Edna Turnblad - Tracy's mother, an asocial shut-in ashamed of her plus-sized figure
* Menchu Lauchengco-Yulo as Velma Von Tussle - the racist former beauty queen/manager of TV station WYZT
* Dulce as "Motormouth" Maybelle - an R&B radio DJ who hosts "Negro Day" on The Corny Collins Show
* Nyoy Volante as Seaweed J. Stubbs - Maybelle's son, an expert dancer who teaches Tracy some moves
* Leo Rialp as Wilbur Turnblad - Tracy's father, the easy-going proprietor of the town's joke shop
Another article published in the Philippine Star: http://ph.news.yahoo.com/star/20081026/tel-2002-hairspray-broadway-first-time-dd408b0.html
Thursday, November 6, 2008
the culprit
i saw your car again a couple of weeks ago.
and i was able to somehow fight the sadness that slowly tried to creep in.
i've been trying to move you at the back of my mind now.
i've been trying to take little steps.
i've been trying to move on.
***
something made me sad today.
and after all the times that i tell myself and other people that i'm not mad at you for what happened, today was the first time that i put the blame on you.
***
you weren't the reason why i got sad today.
but you had a big chunk of a part why that sad thing happened.
yes, you.
this time, i resent you for what you did to me.
it wasn't good.
for me and for a lot of people.
.
and i was able to somehow fight the sadness that slowly tried to creep in.
i've been trying to move you at the back of my mind now.
i've been trying to take little steps.
i've been trying to move on.
***
something made me sad today.
and after all the times that i tell myself and other people that i'm not mad at you for what happened, today was the first time that i put the blame on you.
***
you weren't the reason why i got sad today.
but you had a big chunk of a part why that sad thing happened.
yes, you.
this time, i resent you for what you did to me.
it wasn't good.
for me and for a lot of people.
.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
b o X e d 2008
b o X e d 2008 is about the erotic stories behind the corners of your wall…
about the sensual subconscious and the real or the unreal…
revolving, evolving and dying, decomposing and living once again.
We talk about the taboo of our inner world as we create a whole universe of sensitivity.
A universe of stories told and untold.
opens NOVEMBER 15, 2008 (Saturday) at 6PM.
The CUBICLE ART GALLERY
40-A C. Raymundo corner Stella Maris Street
Brgy. Maybunga, Pasig City 1603, Philippines.
Participants:
Katrina Adrias, Arkisens, Darrel Ballesteros, Allan Balisi, Elvert de la Cruz Bañares, Zeus Bascon, Serjohn Bato, Giselle Bautista, Art Bermido, Robert Besana, Bru, Con Cabrera, Miro Calderon, Buen Calubayan, Ronald Caringal, Jeff Carnay, Clint Catalan, Francis Comendador, Jigger Cruz, Don Djerassi Dalmacio, Melvin Dantes, DeformIndustry, Crisanto De Leon, Ian Del Espiritu Santo, Alon De Guzman, Fabo, Dexter Fernandez, Ging Flores, Mayang Frigillana, Dina Gadia, Angela Garrido, Sarah Gaugler, Eva Gubat, Neil Arvin Javier, Vinita Karim, Lindslee, Lesley Lim, Michelle Pauline Lim, Mark Magistrado, Angelo Magno, Joseph Manata, Lotsu Manes, Hana Marasigan, Meneer Marcelo, ER Masilang, Feanne Mauricio, Jovenz Mayor, Kat Medina, Treb Monteras, Jamel Obnamia, Edrie Ocampo, Okto, AJ Omandac, Nico Orillano, J. Pacena II, Francis Pacheco, Vincent Padilla, Tad Pagaduan, Lynyrd Paras, Mervin Pimentel, Cheyenne Quintana, Julius Ramirez, Oliver Ramos, Sam Ramos, Kirby Roxas, Mark Salvatus, Jopay San Juan, Aman Santos, King Santos, Julius Sebastian, Reine Shih, Apol Sta. Maria, Mimi Tecson, Jomike Tejido, Hubert Tibi, Fernando Torres, Tatong Recheta Torres, Ige Trinidad, Wesley Valenzuela, Ulysses Veloso, Maan Villanueva, Lauren Villarama, WeAreAnalog, Ray Zapanta, Costantino Zicarelli.
about the sensual subconscious and the real or the unreal…
revolving, evolving and dying, decomposing and living once again.
We talk about the taboo of our inner world as we create a whole universe of sensitivity.
A universe of stories told and untold.
opens NOVEMBER 15, 2008 (Saturday) at 6PM.
The CUBICLE ART GALLERY
40-A C. Raymundo corner Stella Maris Street
Brgy. Maybunga, Pasig City 1603, Philippines.
Participants:
Katrina Adrias, Arkisens, Darrel Ballesteros, Allan Balisi, Elvert de la Cruz Bañares, Zeus Bascon, Serjohn Bato, Giselle Bautista, Art Bermido, Robert Besana, Bru, Con Cabrera, Miro Calderon, Buen Calubayan, Ronald Caringal, Jeff Carnay, Clint Catalan, Francis Comendador, Jigger Cruz, Don Djerassi Dalmacio, Melvin Dantes, DeformIndustry, Crisanto De Leon, Ian Del Espiritu Santo, Alon De Guzman, Fabo, Dexter Fernandez, Ging Flores, Mayang Frigillana, Dina Gadia, Angela Garrido, Sarah Gaugler, Eva Gubat, Neil Arvin Javier, Vinita Karim, Lindslee, Lesley Lim, Michelle Pauline Lim, Mark Magistrado, Angelo Magno, Joseph Manata, Lotsu Manes, Hana Marasigan, Meneer Marcelo, ER Masilang, Feanne Mauricio, Jovenz Mayor, Kat Medina, Treb Monteras, Jamel Obnamia, Edrie Ocampo, Okto, AJ Omandac, Nico Orillano, J. Pacena II, Francis Pacheco, Vincent Padilla, Tad Pagaduan, Lynyrd Paras, Mervin Pimentel, Cheyenne Quintana, Julius Ramirez, Oliver Ramos, Sam Ramos, Kirby Roxas, Mark Salvatus, Jopay San Juan, Aman Santos, King Santos, Julius Sebastian, Reine Shih, Apol Sta. Maria, Mimi Tecson, Jomike Tejido, Hubert Tibi, Fernando Torres, Tatong Recheta Torres, Ige Trinidad, Wesley Valenzuela, Ulysses Veloso, Maan Villanueva, Lauren Villarama, WeAreAnalog, Ray Zapanta, Costantino Zicarelli.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Beyond The Classroom: Dialogues at Starbucks
Oct. 25, 2008, 3PM
Starbucks Silver City
Frontera Verde
(near Tiendesitas)
Join us for another series of Dialogues at Starbucks on learning beyond the classroom.
Get loads of spontaneous fun as WeeWillDoodle (www.weewilldoodle.com) returns to show us how learning and creativity go hand in hand within the walls of a classroom as well as beyond. Tuldok Animation (www.tuldokanimation.com) joins us and shares their learnings as Filipino artists with a showcase of their recent animation project.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
what?
j, you haven't even said sorry yet.
you think i'm just gonna let it go again this time?
i'm tired of being patient with you.
it's time you get a dose of your own medicine and learn.
it was your choice. deal with it.
you think i'm just gonna let it go again this time?
i'm tired of being patient with you.
it's time you get a dose of your own medicine and learn.
it was your choice. deal with it.
Palin: cause of global warming 'doesn't matter' - hala.
just in, this issue greeted me while checking my email and was shaken by this woman's "policies". I wonder how America will fare if she wins. AND if she does win, only goes to show na uso na talaga ang pagiging stupid ngayon.
reposting a blog by bru:
actually news-worthy naman sya especially if you follow the US elections. wala naman akong maisasaling, politics is politics. as jaz said, it doesn't matter if you're an ex-beauty queen or a young african-american. basta ang mahalaga ay ang policies mo. so eto:
Republican vice presidential nominee Sarah Palin has said she does not believe global warming is a man-made problem.
+
she supports opening a protected Alaskan wildlife refuge to oil drilling -- a position pilloried by environmentalists and some Democratic leaders.
+
As Alaska governor she has also filed a lawsuit seeking to overturn the current administration's decision to list the polar bear as threatened under the Endangered Species Act. (more and more polar bears are drowning because there's no ice mass to latch on to. global warming means they have to keep afloat at sea with no solid ice in sight, til they just drop drown from exhaustion)
+
In the past week she has faced widespread ridicule for the few interviews she has given, including a previous sit-down in which Palin cited Alaska's proximity to Canada and Russia as giving her a solid grounding in foreign policy.
i don't think i'd go for a world power VP chick who's also "a paid-up member of the National Rifle Association" either. it's just too redneck. read on and get more information on:
http://green.yahoo.com/news/afp/20081001/ts_alt_afp/usvoterepublicanspalinclimate.html
wow may kwenta ang post. to think that i just had 2 glasses of wine with a stick of isaw.
reposting a blog by bru:
actually news-worthy naman sya especially if you follow the US elections. wala naman akong maisasaling, politics is politics. as jaz said, it doesn't matter if you're an ex-beauty queen or a young african-american. basta ang mahalaga ay ang policies mo. so eto:
Republican vice presidential nominee Sarah Palin has said she does not believe global warming is a man-made problem.
+
she supports opening a protected Alaskan wildlife refuge to oil drilling -- a position pilloried by environmentalists and some Democratic leaders.
+
As Alaska governor she has also filed a lawsuit seeking to overturn the current administration's decision to list the polar bear as threatened under the Endangered Species Act. (more and more polar bears are drowning because there's no ice mass to latch on to. global warming means they have to keep afloat at sea with no solid ice in sight, til they just drop drown from exhaustion)
+
In the past week she has faced widespread ridicule for the few interviews she has given, including a previous sit-down in which Palin cited Alaska's proximity to Canada and Russia as giving her a solid grounding in foreign policy.
i don't think i'd go for a world power VP chick who's also "a paid-up member of the National Rifle Association" either. it's just too redneck. read on and get more information on:
http://green.yahoo.com/news/afp/20081001/ts_alt_afp/usvoterepublicanspalinclimate.html
wow may kwenta ang post. to think that i just had 2 glasses of wine with a stick of isaw.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Beyond the Classroom: Dialogues at Starbucks
If you have time to spare this weekend, have some coffee and conversation with multi-awarded social entrepreneur Illac Diaz. It’s another Dialogues at Starbucks on October 4 at 10.30am at Starbucks Plaza 100.
This time while Illac will talk a bit about his latest endeavors, like the Millennium Schools project, we’re engaging him in conversation about the inspiration behind his latest projects and his unusual approach to Poverty.
See you there!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
you don't know me
- I am a fan of the bea-john lloyd loveteam.
- I cried watching The Lion King when i was a kid.
- I'm not crazy about brad pitt nor sam milby.
- I don't like funerals/funeral parlors.
- I only learned how to eat crab and spicy food in Singapore.
- I don’t know how to swim though i love bodies of water.
- The last time I was in Baguio and Davao was more than a decade ago.
- I've never been to Boracay.
- I cried watching The Lion King when i was a kid.
- I'm not crazy about brad pitt nor sam milby.
- I don't like funerals/funeral parlors.
- I only learned how to eat crab and spicy food in Singapore.
- I don’t know how to swim though i love bodies of water.
- The last time I was in Baguio and Davao was more than a decade ago.
- I've never been to Boracay.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i guess it's about time.
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And ALL THE STRUGGLES we went through
HOW I LOST ME and YOU LOST YOU
What are these voices outside love's open door
MAKE US THROW OFF OUR CONTENTMENT
AND BEG FOR SOMETHING MORE?
I'VE BEEN LEARNING TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU NOW
But I miss you sometimes
THE MORE I KNOW, THE LESS I UNDERSTAND
ALL THE THINGS I THOUGHT I KNEW, I'M LEARNING THEM AGAIN
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And MY THOUGHTS SEEM TO SCATTER
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
THERE'S A YEARNING UNDEFINED
And people filled with rage
WE ALL NEED A LITTLE TENDERNESS
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the TRUST and SELF-ASSURANCE that lead to happiness
THEY'RE THE VERY THINGS WE KILL, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm
I've been trying to live without you now
BUT I MISS YOU, baby
THE MORE I KNOW, THE LESS I UNDERSTAND
And ALL THE THINGS I THOUGHT I FIGURED OUT, I HAVE TO LEARN AGAIN
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET DOWN TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER
But MY WILL GETS WEAK
And MY HEART IS SO SHATTERED
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
ALL THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO'VE COME AND GONE
THEY LET YOU DOWN, you know they hurt your pride
BETTER PUT IT ALL BEHIND YOU; CAUSE LIFE GOES ON
YOU KEEP CARRYIN' THAT ANGER, it'll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I KNOW IT'S ABOUT FORGIVENESS
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because THE FLESH WILL GET WEAK
And the ashes will scatter
SO I'M THINKIN' ABOUT FORGIVENESS
Forgiveness
EVEN IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE
no bitter pills. it was the first thing i did for you.
Monday, August 25, 2008
instincts and melancholic realizations
i should've listened to my instinct last night.
i already felt that something was gonna happen that night that would make me uneasy. the feeling was just there.
a few minutes after, i saw your car pass by.
i didn't see you. but i saw your car. and it was enough.
i felt like my mind was erased blank all of a sudden. i was trying to listen to my bestfriend talk about his recent discoveries but his words fell on deaf ears. i was not there. i was not ready for any sign of your presence even if i hoped for it.
and i felt really sad all over again.
when i got home, tears started to flow again. and i didn't know what i was crying about exactly.
as i think about it now, i should've listened to my instincts a long time ago.
but i just had to give my poor little heart a chance to feel again. it doesn't happen often anyway.
i guess i gave it too much of a chance.
too much, i allowed it to be stomped on.
.
i already felt that something was gonna happen that night that would make me uneasy. the feeling was just there.
a few minutes after, i saw your car pass by.
i didn't see you. but i saw your car. and it was enough.
i felt like my mind was erased blank all of a sudden. i was trying to listen to my bestfriend talk about his recent discoveries but his words fell on deaf ears. i was not there. i was not ready for any sign of your presence even if i hoped for it.
and i felt really sad all over again.
when i got home, tears started to flow again. and i didn't know what i was crying about exactly.
as i think about it now, i should've listened to my instincts a long time ago.
but i just had to give my poor little heart a chance to feel again. it doesn't happen often anyway.
i guess i gave it too much of a chance.
too much, i allowed it to be stomped on.
.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
very apt
How do you cool your lips
After a summer’s kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you’d know anywhere
Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive
How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again
Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of vogue, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive
I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive
- by Jann Arden
***
i didn't realize how appropriate this song was for me when i sang this at a party i went to a few nights ago.
and, as i hoped i wouldn't, i cried a river of tears again that night as i was about to go home.
i wanna bury this pain.
i'm slowly digging the grave.
.
After a summer’s kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you’d know anywhere
Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive
How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again
Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of vogue, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive
I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive
- by Jann Arden
***
i didn't realize how appropriate this song was for me when i sang this at a party i went to a few nights ago.
and, as i hoped i wouldn't, i cried a river of tears again that night as i was about to go home.
i wanna bury this pain.
i'm slowly digging the grave.
.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Saturday, August 2, 2008
because of last night.
Out of reach
by Gabrielle
Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be ok
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And now I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach I can see
There’s a life out there for me
***
i allowed myself to be stupid last night.
i pleaded to you.
i swallowed my pride.
i allowed myself to look and seem desperate.
i was.... desperate for a friend, for someone to talk to, for you.
and i had my ego crushed.
i don't matter to you. and i don't deserve this.
but as long as you're still occupying even the farthest crevices of my brain and the deepest recesses of my heart, i will write here.
until you're gone. really gone.
.
by Gabrielle
Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be ok
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And now I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach I can see
There’s a life out there for me
***
i allowed myself to be stupid last night.
i pleaded to you.
i swallowed my pride.
i allowed myself to look and seem desperate.
i was.... desperate for a friend, for someone to talk to, for you.
and i had my ego crushed.
i don't matter to you. and i don't deserve this.
but as long as you're still occupying even the farthest crevices of my brain and the deepest recesses of my heart, i will write here.
until you're gone. really gone.
.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
grey and blue.
i've been crying again lately...
not just because of you, but of all the things that have been happening in my life right now.
but mostly because of you.
i've been meeting people. new friends and old.
some have expressed interest.
and whenever i think about giving it a try, i cry.
i'm not ready to let go of you. not just yet.
i know.
because i dreamt of you last night.
we were about to make love in my dream.
now everything's a blur.
.
not just because of you, but of all the things that have been happening in my life right now.
but mostly because of you.
i've been meeting people. new friends and old.
some have expressed interest.
and whenever i think about giving it a try, i cry.
i'm not ready to let go of you. not just yet.
i know.
because i dreamt of you last night.
we were about to make love in my dream.
now everything's a blur.
.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
dizzy daisy
i'm in the third trimester of the year and it seems like fate still isn't keen on being friendly to me. bleh.
...
Latest Mistake
by Mandy Moore
There is part of me that wants an answer
And part of me that doesn't want to know
Part of you that I am in love with
And the part that I am willing to let go
This is a delicate unraveling
Now and then I find pieces on the floor
Tiny little bits that tell me
Maybe I shouldn't do this
Or love you anymore
Someone's gonna have to fess up
Someone's gonna have to clean this mess up
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
I wonder what will make you happy
I wonder what you'll do with it all
I have a map in my head
Somehow still don't understand
Why I always have to miss you
Why I have to make the call
Someone's gonna have to step up
Someone's gonna have to clean this mess up
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
Before you drive me away
Take a good look at me, baby
Picture me not lying on your couch
Well, I wish the best for you
Everytime you go thru this
Before you finally figure it out
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
by Mandy Moore
There is part of me that wants an answer
And part of me that doesn't want to know
Part of you that I am in love with
And the part that I am willing to let go
This is a delicate unraveling
Now and then I find pieces on the floor
Tiny little bits that tell me
Maybe I shouldn't do this
Or love you anymore
Someone's gonna have to fess up
Someone's gonna have to clean this mess up
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
I wonder what will make you happy
I wonder what you'll do with it all
I have a map in my head
Somehow still don't understand
Why I always have to miss you
Why I have to make the call
Someone's gonna have to step up
Someone's gonna have to clean this mess up
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
Before you drive me away
Take a good look at me, baby
Picture me not lying on your couch
Well, I wish the best for you
Everytime you go thru this
Before you finally figure it out
'Cause I wanted you the first time
And I loved you from the second
And I don't know how that ever goes away
As far as I can tell
You're really good at talking
So I think its time you let me know
I'm just your latest mistake
gratitude
got this from the Secret Gratitude Blog by the author of OAP.
"Gratitude is one of the most powerful emotions you can use to bring all-good into your life in absolute abundance. No matter who you are, no matter where you are, gratitude can dissolve all negativity in your life, no matter what form it has taken. Let me explain how something as simple as gratitude can completely transform your life.
When you are grateful for the things that you want to come into your life (the perfect relationship, the dream job, absolute health, total abundance) before they actually appear, you are sending out a frequency to the Universe that you already have those things. The law of attraction does not know if you are imagining something or it it is real, so by giving heartfelt thanks for it now, you must attract those things to you. This is an immutable law, and when used correctly it is unfailing in its response.
To maximize all the power of these words of wisdom and truth, read them slowly, say each word emphatically and with intensity, and feel them deeply within your heart:
1. Before you begin to write anything, sit quietly and silently say “Thank you” twenty times. Feel the feelings of gratitude as you silently repeat the words “Thank you.”
2. Always list the things you are grateful for in the present tense, whether you have them now or not. If you write the things you want as being in the future, then they will always be in the future. For example, “I am so grateful for all the abundance that will come to me” could result in the abundance always just “coming”… and not arriving! To harness the power of the law of attraction, you have to give thanks NOW for the things you want, as though you have already received them.
3. When writing your list, begin each sentence with “I am truly grateful for…” OR “I am so grateful now that… ” Or “Thank you for…” Or any other similar words of gratitude that feel good to you.
4. First write down the things you are grateful for in your life now and feel the feelings as deeply as possible with your heart.
5. When you have finished your daily “Gratitude Now” list, immediately write down your gratitude list for all the things you want to come into your life. Remember to write them as though you have them now.
The more you use gratitude every day, the greater the good you will bring into your life. It is all you have to do to completely transform your life in every single area, and on every single subject. There are no limits to the good that you can bring forth to you, and by practicing gratitude daily, you will increase and maximize your magnetic power to attract a life beyond your wildest dreams. And for you to live a life beyond your wildest dreams is my dream come true."
- Rhonda Bryne, Author of the The Secret
"Gratitude is one of the most powerful emotions you can use to bring all-good into your life in absolute abundance. No matter who you are, no matter where you are, gratitude can dissolve all negativity in your life, no matter what form it has taken. Let me explain how something as simple as gratitude can completely transform your life.
When you are grateful for the things that you want to come into your life (the perfect relationship, the dream job, absolute health, total abundance) before they actually appear, you are sending out a frequency to the Universe that you already have those things. The law of attraction does not know if you are imagining something or it it is real, so by giving heartfelt thanks for it now, you must attract those things to you. This is an immutable law, and when used correctly it is unfailing in its response.
To maximize all the power of these words of wisdom and truth, read them slowly, say each word emphatically and with intensity, and feel them deeply within your heart:
1. Before you begin to write anything, sit quietly and silently say “Thank you” twenty times. Feel the feelings of gratitude as you silently repeat the words “Thank you.”
2. Always list the things you are grateful for in the present tense, whether you have them now or not. If you write the things you want as being in the future, then they will always be in the future. For example, “I am so grateful for all the abundance that will come to me” could result in the abundance always just “coming”… and not arriving! To harness the power of the law of attraction, you have to give thanks NOW for the things you want, as though you have already received them.
3. When writing your list, begin each sentence with “I am truly grateful for…” OR “I am so grateful now that… ” Or “Thank you for…” Or any other similar words of gratitude that feel good to you.
4. First write down the things you are grateful for in your life now and feel the feelings as deeply as possible with your heart.
5. When you have finished your daily “Gratitude Now” list, immediately write down your gratitude list for all the things you want to come into your life. Remember to write them as though you have them now.
The more you use gratitude every day, the greater the good you will bring into your life. It is all you have to do to completely transform your life in every single area, and on every single subject. There are no limits to the good that you can bring forth to you, and by practicing gratitude daily, you will increase and maximize your magnetic power to attract a life beyond your wildest dreams. And for you to live a life beyond your wildest dreams is my dream come true."
- Rhonda Bryne, Author of the The Secret
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
unwell.
people have been telling me to move on, to open myself to possibilities - other possibilities of love.
i've been trying to entertain the idea.
i don't know. i don't feel ready for it. but i'm thinking about it.
and this morning, just when i started thinking about the possibility of seeing other people again, i cried again.
and it hurt so much.
and i realized that i'm really not yet ready.
you see, sniffer, i still can't let go.
i'm still hoping.
i still believe.
i still love you.
.
i've been trying to entertain the idea.
i don't know. i don't feel ready for it. but i'm thinking about it.
and this morning, just when i started thinking about the possibility of seeing other people again, i cried again.
and it hurt so much.
and i realized that i'm really not yet ready.
you see, sniffer, i still can't let go.
i'm still hoping.
i still believe.
i still love you.
.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Don’t know how to name your band?
killing boredom...
Anyway, here it goes:
1. Click here. The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
2. Click here. The last four words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.
(If you want to do this again, you'll hit refresh to generate new quotes, because clicking the quotes link again will just give you the same quotes over and over again.)
3. Click here. Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4. Click here. The first ten links you end up in (minus the .coms) are your 10 song titles.
And here are my results:
Band Name: Susanne Latimore (why her?!)
Album Name: 'Has To Be Us’
(Full quote from Jerry Garcia of the Grateful Dead)
Album Cover:
(ayus... pic title is 'goodbye' by visithra)
Track titles:
1. Bombing Science
2. Mystifying
3. Turtelina
4. Metalingo
5. Strikeslip
6. Michael Efford
7. Stormlight Design
8. Sedoparking
9. Ben Lizard
10. Angelfire
Mala-The 7 Autumn Flowers ang dating, hehe...
Anyway, here it goes:
1. Click here. The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
2. Click here. The last four words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.
(If you want to do this again, you'll hit refresh to generate new quotes, because clicking the quotes link again will just give you the same quotes over and over again.)
3. Click here. Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4. Click here. The first ten links you end up in (minus the .coms) are your 10 song titles.
And here are my results:
Band Name: Susanne Latimore (why her?!)
Album Name: 'Has To Be Us’
(Full quote from Jerry Garcia of the Grateful Dead)
Album Cover:
(ayus... pic title is 'goodbye' by visithra)
Track titles:
1. Bombing Science
2. Mystifying
3. Turtelina
4. Metalingo
5. Strikeslip
6. Michael Efford
7. Stormlight Design
8. Sedoparking
9. Ben Lizard
10. Angelfire
Mala-The 7 Autumn Flowers ang dating, hehe...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
surprise. surprise.
i thought that the first half of this year would end with you gone.
and then you suddenly wanted to see me.
i fell in shock when i saw your message asking me out for coffee.
and then i knew this was the chance i was waiting for to talk to you, to tell you what i feel and what i think about things.
but i was so nervous to see you again.
i tried to be cold when i saw you. but i couldn't help it. i couldn't help but warm up a bit to you.
i was so bothered thinking of how to broach the topic so i just kept quiet most of the time.
and the place where you took me. it was something. it was so nice i couldn't help but loosen up, cozy up to the place, to you.
i had a nice time. but i began to feel that my purpose won't be fulfilled before the night ends.
i knew i had to do something since you seemed oblivious to the fact that you have been gone.
and just as i was about to get out of your car, i stopped myself and opened up.
i'm glad i talked to you about it, about how i felt. i'm glad i was able to be honest to you. because i wanted to lay the foundation of honesty again in our relationship, whatever relationship this is called.
i felt a bit of relief after that. hearing your answers reassured me that, yes, i really know how you think somehow.
and, yes, i still mattered to you.
but i also got worried about you, hearing your reason for not keeping in touch that long.
i was proud of you, trying to learn, trying to grow. but i got worried for you. you deserve so much better, sniffer. but, i guess, this is part of your growing pains. and if you have to go through this to come out a better person, then i'll just be here for you, whatever happens.
i am your friend too.
i will always be here for you.
and i still love you.
.
and then you suddenly wanted to see me.
i fell in shock when i saw your message asking me out for coffee.
and then i knew this was the chance i was waiting for to talk to you, to tell you what i feel and what i think about things.
but i was so nervous to see you again.
i tried to be cold when i saw you. but i couldn't help it. i couldn't help but warm up a bit to you.
i was so bothered thinking of how to broach the topic so i just kept quiet most of the time.
and the place where you took me. it was something. it was so nice i couldn't help but loosen up, cozy up to the place, to you.
i had a nice time. but i began to feel that my purpose won't be fulfilled before the night ends.
i knew i had to do something since you seemed oblivious to the fact that you have been gone.
and just as i was about to get out of your car, i stopped myself and opened up.
i'm glad i talked to you about it, about how i felt. i'm glad i was able to be honest to you. because i wanted to lay the foundation of honesty again in our relationship, whatever relationship this is called.
i felt a bit of relief after that. hearing your answers reassured me that, yes, i really know how you think somehow.
and, yes, i still mattered to you.
but i also got worried about you, hearing your reason for not keeping in touch that long.
i was proud of you, trying to learn, trying to grow. but i got worried for you. you deserve so much better, sniffer. but, i guess, this is part of your growing pains. and if you have to go through this to come out a better person, then i'll just be here for you, whatever happens.
i am your friend too.
i will always be here for you.
and i still love you.
.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
anger management
there are times when i wish i had a ready water balloon in my bag so i could just throw it easily and quickly at every 'pasaway' fx, jeep, bus, private vehicle or human being (no, you're not spared) i'll encounter.
and then i'll run as fast as i can.
and then i'll run as fast as i can.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
no. 9
You Are 9: The Peacemaker |
 You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others. Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict. You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come. Avoiding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm. At Your Best: You feel connected, trusting, and fulfilled. You feel at peace with your place in the world. At Your Worst: You compromise your values to make sure peace is maintained. You give in to bullies. Your Fixation: Harmony Your Primary Fear: Causing conflict Your Primary Desire: To preserve things as they are Other Number 9's: Marge Simpson, Ronald Reagan, Audrey Hepburn, Jerry Seinfeld, and Abraham Lincoln. |
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Friday, June 20, 2008
dreams
1
i invited you to give a talk to a group of people at an event. you said yes. but i found it weird that you looked like how you were back in college when you transferred already at the other university. your hair was how i saw it in one of your pictures in your bedroom.
you were wearing an orange shirt, which was strange because you don't wear that color.
you delivered your talk in tagalog, which was another strange thing, because you taught english grammar.
while delivering your talk, you addressed one girl in the audience (who was also in orange) as "babe", and asked her a question in english. i remember feeling so furious when you did that. but i also remembered that talk about calling me 'dear' not 'babe'. i couldn't see her face. she was petite though. and i only remember her hair.
at the end of your talk, the same girl approached you and talked to you. i was already feeling jealous. and my jealousy heightened when you left the venue with her. i was so furious and so hurt that my friend had to comfort me. it also felt weird that i didn't know her but i knew her name.
i was surprised when you came back. but i only saw you from afar. you were looking for someone. i knew you were looking for me because i was the only one who knew in that event.
i was relieved for a moment. but when you saw me looking at you, you suddenly avoided my look and left as if you got scared.
i was so hurt in that dream. it felt real. so real that i woke up crying.
2
i was inside a bedroom that looked like mine. my mom was knocking at the door so i opened it and she told me that something was already taken care of, that your parents already bought it for my parents and that i need not worry about it. in my dream i felt weird about that. i was thinking why would your parents do that for my parents. and i realized in my dream that we were already married, probably civilly, and that your parents wanted us to get married because of my situation. i was pregnant in my dream.
i was in a big bedroom, a bedroom which seemed like it was situated in a condominium. i was lying down on the bed, taking my rest, talking to a fat, asian-looking woman who seemed like she was a stand-up comedienne. she was trying to make me laugh. she was asking me how i could have ridiculously forgotten to inform my friends that i already got married to you.
in my dream, i was only 2 months pregnant but i already felt the belly bump. i was telling this woman how i excited i was for the baby.
at one end of the room near the big bedroom windows, you were seated in front of the computer busy doing work. i was rubbing my belly when i felt 2 heartbeats. i was so excited i called you to come over so you could also feel the heartbeat. you wouldn't leave what you were doing. i called over and over again but you wouldn't come. until you finally stood up and walked a few steps, but your eyes and your attention was still on the computer. i felt so disappointed because of your reaction that i said 'nevermind'. and the moment i said that, you immediately went back to your work.
i went to sit on the floor by the bedroom window just behind you and just stared at the view outside. i looked at you and i felt sad. the fat lady saw everything that happened. she went to me and asked me what's the problem with you. i just said you're too busy. she asked me if i was ok with that, if i was ok about everything. and i replied to her saying 'this is how it is'.
again, i woke up with tears in my eyes.
3
we were lying on my bed.
you were looking straight in my eyes, touching my face.
your eyes were sad.
and you hugged me and kissed me.
and then you said you missed me.
i wished it to be true. i yearned for it to be so true.
4
a short one. you said you missed me. you hugged me and kissed me.
5
i was with a friend at a beach resort that looked like the one i went to recently. i was surprised to see you there. and then you kept me company. but i was feeling a bit of distance. the distance i felt the last time i saw you. in my dream, i was denying that feeling. you were there but i didn't feel you "there".
we crossed the beach walking, you were walking ahead of me, eager to reach the shore. when my friend had the chance to talk to me alone, she asked me i was with you. i told her you wanted to go with me. and she said i should be cautious now, that i should guard myself this time and guard my heart coz you might disappear again anytime just like you did.
you were walking ahead of us. i was still having a talk with my friend so we continued walking but you stayed at the deck near the shore. i left my bag and my phones with you before proceeding to that walk and you said you might go ahead later on back to our room.
when my friend and i got back to the deck, you were gone with the things i left with you except for my phone. i figured you went ahead back to our room already and you had my bag with you.
it was a long walk going back to the rooms. when we reached the floor of our rooms, i was shocked to hear two voices coming from our bedroom. one was yours. the other one was a female person's. the bedroom had two doors beside each other. both doors were open. the entrance to the bedroom looked like my own bedroom.
since both doors were already open, i partly saw the view of the room, but i already saw the edge of the bed. and i could see that you were lying on the bed because i saw your legs near the edge. but i also saw the view of the back of the girl who was on top of you. both of you weren't naked but it seemed like you were having sex while talking. i could hear you both talking.
my friend was walking ahead of me. she was already able to enter the room and i was just behind her. i almost entered the room. and as if sensing the tension and the panic that i was feeling, she slammed the other door shut so i wouldn't have to see the whole thing that was happening inside our room.
i couldn't find myself entering the room anymore. i was in shock, in pain. i couldn't breathe and tears were just flowing from my eyes. i was in a daze. i didn't know if i was going to run away from that place or if i was going to show up inside the room. i felt so confused.
i think i tried to run away silently. but my tears overflowed and i was having trouble breathing i wanted to scream. just like how i wanted to scream when i learned about the post you made at this site that our friend saw.
surprisingly, i woke up not crying. i was just relieved to know that it was just a dream. but it made me think.
6
we were at a store that looked like saks on fifth avenue in new york. we started running after each other, sometimes holding hands sometimes just running like kids playing tag. we were happy like kids. i felt happy.
sometimes, while running, you would be so near me, you'd grab me and hug me from behind and smell my hair. and we'd just continue running and gliding like the floors were so smooth to glide on. i felt so good at those times.
later on, it seemed like we were both running to catch up on something, like having to meet a deadline. at the end of that store, there was an elevator. we went inside it. and when it opened to a different floor, we got off to an office that looked like a psychiatrist's office.
you sat on one chair and there was another man in the room, a foreigner. he was surprised to see me there. he was a bit alarmed actually. i think he was still the one in session and that we came too early. he wasn't finished yet so he told me i wasn't supposed to be there in the room. i looked at you and had a questioning look on my face. and, as if, reading my mind, you said it was ok, that i can wait outside until it was your turn, that you were going to wait inside because it was ok and that you were next. and i figured that this was a visit to your psychiatrist. i was about to go out of the room when the man asked me a favor that if a man named howard was looking for him, have howard go inside the room.
i went outside. and then i woke up.
***
i wish i knew what my dreams about you meant. i wish they could give me answers to my questions. i wish it held the key to unlocking the mystery that is you.
.
i invited you to give a talk to a group of people at an event. you said yes. but i found it weird that you looked like how you were back in college when you transferred already at the other university. your hair was how i saw it in one of your pictures in your bedroom.
you were wearing an orange shirt, which was strange because you don't wear that color.
you delivered your talk in tagalog, which was another strange thing, because you taught english grammar.
while delivering your talk, you addressed one girl in the audience (who was also in orange) as "babe", and asked her a question in english. i remember feeling so furious when you did that. but i also remembered that talk about calling me 'dear' not 'babe'. i couldn't see her face. she was petite though. and i only remember her hair.
at the end of your talk, the same girl approached you and talked to you. i was already feeling jealous. and my jealousy heightened when you left the venue with her. i was so furious and so hurt that my friend had to comfort me. it also felt weird that i didn't know her but i knew her name.
i was surprised when you came back. but i only saw you from afar. you were looking for someone. i knew you were looking for me because i was the only one who knew in that event.
i was relieved for a moment. but when you saw me looking at you, you suddenly avoided my look and left as if you got scared.
i was so hurt in that dream. it felt real. so real that i woke up crying.
2
i was inside a bedroom that looked like mine. my mom was knocking at the door so i opened it and she told me that something was already taken care of, that your parents already bought it for my parents and that i need not worry about it. in my dream i felt weird about that. i was thinking why would your parents do that for my parents. and i realized in my dream that we were already married, probably civilly, and that your parents wanted us to get married because of my situation. i was pregnant in my dream.
i was in a big bedroom, a bedroom which seemed like it was situated in a condominium. i was lying down on the bed, taking my rest, talking to a fat, asian-looking woman who seemed like she was a stand-up comedienne. she was trying to make me laugh. she was asking me how i could have ridiculously forgotten to inform my friends that i already got married to you.
in my dream, i was only 2 months pregnant but i already felt the belly bump. i was telling this woman how i excited i was for the baby.
at one end of the room near the big bedroom windows, you were seated in front of the computer busy doing work. i was rubbing my belly when i felt 2 heartbeats. i was so excited i called you to come over so you could also feel the heartbeat. you wouldn't leave what you were doing. i called over and over again but you wouldn't come. until you finally stood up and walked a few steps, but your eyes and your attention was still on the computer. i felt so disappointed because of your reaction that i said 'nevermind'. and the moment i said that, you immediately went back to your work.
i went to sit on the floor by the bedroom window just behind you and just stared at the view outside. i looked at you and i felt sad. the fat lady saw everything that happened. she went to me and asked me what's the problem with you. i just said you're too busy. she asked me if i was ok with that, if i was ok about everything. and i replied to her saying 'this is how it is'.
again, i woke up with tears in my eyes.
3
we were lying on my bed.
you were looking straight in my eyes, touching my face.
your eyes were sad.
and you hugged me and kissed me.
and then you said you missed me.
i wished it to be true. i yearned for it to be so true.
4
a short one. you said you missed me. you hugged me and kissed me.
5
i was with a friend at a beach resort that looked like the one i went to recently. i was surprised to see you there. and then you kept me company. but i was feeling a bit of distance. the distance i felt the last time i saw you. in my dream, i was denying that feeling. you were there but i didn't feel you "there".
we crossed the beach walking, you were walking ahead of me, eager to reach the shore. when my friend had the chance to talk to me alone, she asked me i was with you. i told her you wanted to go with me. and she said i should be cautious now, that i should guard myself this time and guard my heart coz you might disappear again anytime just like you did.
you were walking ahead of us. i was still having a talk with my friend so we continued walking but you stayed at the deck near the shore. i left my bag and my phones with you before proceeding to that walk and you said you might go ahead later on back to our room.
when my friend and i got back to the deck, you were gone with the things i left with you except for my phone. i figured you went ahead back to our room already and you had my bag with you.
it was a long walk going back to the rooms. when we reached the floor of our rooms, i was shocked to hear two voices coming from our bedroom. one was yours. the other one was a female person's. the bedroom had two doors beside each other. both doors were open. the entrance to the bedroom looked like my own bedroom.
since both doors were already open, i partly saw the view of the room, but i already saw the edge of the bed. and i could see that you were lying on the bed because i saw your legs near the edge. but i also saw the view of the back of the girl who was on top of you. both of you weren't naked but it seemed like you were having sex while talking. i could hear you both talking.
my friend was walking ahead of me. she was already able to enter the room and i was just behind her. i almost entered the room. and as if sensing the tension and the panic that i was feeling, she slammed the other door shut so i wouldn't have to see the whole thing that was happening inside our room.
i couldn't find myself entering the room anymore. i was in shock, in pain. i couldn't breathe and tears were just flowing from my eyes. i was in a daze. i didn't know if i was going to run away from that place or if i was going to show up inside the room. i felt so confused.
i think i tried to run away silently. but my tears overflowed and i was having trouble breathing i wanted to scream. just like how i wanted to scream when i learned about the post you made at this site that our friend saw.
surprisingly, i woke up not crying. i was just relieved to know that it was just a dream. but it made me think.
6
we were at a store that looked like saks on fifth avenue in new york. we started running after each other, sometimes holding hands sometimes just running like kids playing tag. we were happy like kids. i felt happy.
sometimes, while running, you would be so near me, you'd grab me and hug me from behind and smell my hair. and we'd just continue running and gliding like the floors were so smooth to glide on. i felt so good at those times.
later on, it seemed like we were both running to catch up on something, like having to meet a deadline. at the end of that store, there was an elevator. we went inside it. and when it opened to a different floor, we got off to an office that looked like a psychiatrist's office.
you sat on one chair and there was another man in the room, a foreigner. he was surprised to see me there. he was a bit alarmed actually. i think he was still the one in session and that we came too early. he wasn't finished yet so he told me i wasn't supposed to be there in the room. i looked at you and had a questioning look on my face. and, as if, reading my mind, you said it was ok, that i can wait outside until it was your turn, that you were going to wait inside because it was ok and that you were next. and i figured that this was a visit to your psychiatrist. i was about to go out of the room when the man asked me a favor that if a man named howard was looking for him, have howard go inside the room.
i went outside. and then i woke up.
***
i wish i knew what my dreams about you meant. i wish they could give me answers to my questions. i wish it held the key to unlocking the mystery that is you.
.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
My Birthday meaning
http://www.paulsadowski.com/
27 December 1978
Your date of conception was on or about 5 April 1978 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 1.
Your fortune cookie reads:
Let there be magic in your smile and firmness in your handshake.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2443869.5.
The golden number for 1978 is 3.
The epact number for 1978 is 21.
The year 1978 was not a leap year.
Julian date:
The number of days since noon 4713 BC January 1.
Golden Number:
A number showing the year of the lunar or Metonic cycle. It is reckoned from 1 to 19, and is so called from having formerly been written in the calendar in gold.
Epact Number:
The moon's age at the beginning of the calendar year, or the number of days by which the last new moon has preceded the beginning of the year.
Julian date:
The number of days since noon 4713 BC January 1.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/7/1978 and ending 1/27/1979.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Horse.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 28 Kislev 5739.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 29 Kislev 5739.
Your birth tree is
There are 190 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 203 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning crescent.
27 December 1978
Your date of conception was on or about 5 April 1978 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 1.
Your fortune cookie reads:
Let there be magic in your smile and firmness in your handshake.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2443869.5.
The golden number for 1978 is 3.
The epact number for 1978 is 21.
The year 1978 was not a leap year.
Julian date:
The number of days since noon 4713 BC January 1.
Golden Number:
A number showing the year of the lunar or Metonic cycle. It is reckoned from 1 to 19, and is so called from having formerly been written in the calendar in gold.
Epact Number:
The moon's age at the beginning of the calendar year, or the number of days by which the last new moon has preceded the beginning of the year.
Julian date:
The number of days since noon 4713 BC January 1.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/7/1978 and ending 1/27/1979.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Horse.
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Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 28 Kislev 5739.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 29 Kislev 5739.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.5.9.5 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 5 tun 9 uinal 5 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 26 Muharram 1399 (1399-1-26).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1978.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1978.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1978.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1978.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1978.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 2 October 1978.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 22 April 1978.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1978.
As of 6/18/2008 11:02:17 PM EDT
You are 29 years old.
You are 354 months old.
You are 1,538 weeks old.
You are 10,766 days old.
You are 258,407 hours old.
You are 15,504,422 minutes old.
You are 930,265,337 seconds old.
Celebrities who share your birthday:Heather O'Rourke (1975) G‚rard Depardieu (1948) Cokie Roberts (1943) John Amos (1939) Oscar Levant (1906) Marlene Dietrich (1901) Sydney Greenstreet (1879) Louis Pasteur (1822)
Top songs of 1978
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 4.21369863013699 years old. (You're still chasing cats!)
Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 192 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 30 candles.
Those 30 candles produce 30 BTUs,
or 7,560 calories of heat (that's only 7.5600 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.43 US ounces of water with that many candles. 
In 1978 there were approximately 3.1 million births in the US.
In 1978 the US population was approximately 203,302,031 people, 57.4 persons per square mile.
In 1978 in the US there were approximately 2,152,662 marriages (10.1%) and 1,036,000 divorces (4.9%)
In 1978 in the US there were approximately 1,921,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.
In 1978 the population of Australia was approximately 14,430,830.
In 1978 there were approximately 224,181 births in Australia.
In 1978 in Australia there were approximately 102,958 marriages and 40,608 divorces.
In 1978 in Australia there were approximately 108,425 deaths.
Your birthstone is Blue Zircon
The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon
Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself.Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli
Your birth tree is
Apple Tree, the LoveOf slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.
There are 190 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 203 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning crescent.
My Primary Love Story
Love Conquers All is your primary love story!
At its core, the Love Conquers All story is very romantic, triumphant, and full of courage to face yourself with honesty. The catalyst for change in your love story is usually a pivotal event, circumstance, or reevaluation of yourself.
Where should you look for these pivotal moments? Challenges may come from family and society — even yourself. Do loved ones disapprove of your partner, raise concerns you hadn't previously cared that much about? Turning points may also stem from previous obligations at work, or in promises you've made to others. Do you reschedule or delay plans with your partner because you feel the need to honor responsibilities at the office? Do you prioritize taking care of a friend in need over the needs of your mate?
These themes are echoed throughout history and recorded in diaries, novels, television and films. In Jane Austin's novel "Emma" for example, the protagonist put everybody else's romantic needs before her own. Had she not stopped to question herself, she would have missed a chance for love altogether. Was she just looking after her friends? Or was she guarding herself from the potential hurt of a relationship or unrequited love?
Ambition to be loyal to loved ones, move ahead at work, improve your home, see the world — these are all good things. But sometimes, they take precedence over your love life — whether you are conscious of it or not. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but think about it. Are you ever afraid of being held back from your goals? Or that a relationship might make attaining those goals a slower process, or change them completely?
Remember Nicolas Cage in the film "Family Man"? Through a strange twist of fate, he's given the opportunity to see life as it might have been had he gotten married instead of pursued successes at work. Though fantastical and magical, he experiences a jarring event, and through it, realizes he has different priorities. He would give up his important job and expensive belongings to be with the one woman he realizes he truly loves. And he realizes that his initial choice to pursue his career instead of pursue his relationship was driven not by his hopes for success, but his fear of taking on the seriousness of his relationship. With this insight, he has the courage to face himself, not preexisting hopes and goals.
Even if fate doesn't throw obstacles in your way, it's possible that you do. Do you shy away from romantic commitments? Do you make excuses for not dating? Do you wish your relationships never progressed passed the lovey-dovey stage? Are the people you date "all wrong" for you? There's a reason you're holding back from pursuing a good thing. You may put excuses between you and another person, or you may intentionally pick the wrong person to give you an out, an alternative to getting serious. The real courage in your love story comes from taking a good look at yourself, and questioning your motivations.
Once you recognize this as your story, you will indeed have the courage and the insight to question yourself and make a commitment, or break with someone before external events force you to. In this manner, Courage is one of the most noble and truthful love stories out there.
In "Notting Hill," Julia Roberts plays a movie star whose career (not to mention awful boyfriend) get in the way of a fledgling romance with a London bookseller (Hugh Grant). In "Autumn in New York," a cheating playboy played by Richard Gere finds himself in love with a dying 22-year-old. Will he mend his ways before it's too late? The love story that drives these plots is the same that drives your fantasies and relationships, which is why these stories can be so powerful. Of course, in the movies it's always clear just whom the lead person should hook up with. In real life, it's quite a bit harder. Love Conquers All, and now you're equipped to find it.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
| Advanced Global Personality Test Results
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personality test by similarminds.com
Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
trait snapshot:
clean, organized, dislikes chaos, semi neat freak, perfectionist, traditional, realist, fits in most places, enjoys managing others, risk averse, good at saving money, prudent, respects authority, high self control, hard working, does not like to stand out, follows the rules, finisher, resilient, takes precautions, cautious, honest, unfamiliar with the dark side of life, practical, dutiful
carrie-d
| this one's got esp... You Are Most Like Carrie! |
 You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date. But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal? It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky. Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes, no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated. |
Thursday, June 5, 2008
first reactions
Here we go:
1. Beer: Budweiser
2. McDonald's: burger
3. Relationships: tango
4. Purple: grimace
5. Power Rangers: yellow
7. Steroids: bulky
8. Cartoons: Saturday morning
9. The President: seal
10. Tupperware: party
11. Some beach: cloudy
12. Santa Claus: Christmas
13. Halloween: cats
14. Alice: white
15. Grammar: Webster
16: Myspace: yours
17. Clowns: sad
18. Marriage: commitment
19. Paris: romance
20. Redheads: freckles
21. Pass: the Cheer (hehe…)
22. One night stands: zip
23. Donald Trump: you’re fired.
24. Neverland: Johnny Depp
25. Vanilla ice cream: pistachio cookies
28. Hookers: make-up
29. High school: drama
30. Pajamas: dreams
31. Woody: weird
32. Wet Socks: flood
33. I Love: You.
1. Beer: Budweiser
2. McDonald's: burger
3. Relationships: tango
4. Purple: grimace
5. Power Rangers: yellow
7. Steroids: bulky
8. Cartoons: Saturday morning
9. The President: seal
10. Tupperware: party
11. Some beach: cloudy
12. Santa Claus: Christmas
13. Halloween: cats
14. Alice: white
15. Grammar: Webster
16: Myspace: yours
17. Clowns: sad
18. Marriage: commitment
19. Paris: romance
20. Redheads: freckles
21. Pass: the Cheer (hehe…)
22. One night stands: zip
23. Donald Trump: you’re fired.
24. Neverland: Johnny Depp
25. Vanilla ice cream: pistachio cookies
28. Hookers: make-up
29. High school: drama
30. Pajamas: dreams
31. Woody: weird
32. Wet Socks: flood
33. I Love: You.
Friday, May 30, 2008
blind. dense.
why are you hurting me? why are you hurting me this way? don't i matter to you anymore? do i still matter to you? do you still think about me? why don't you try to see me? why won't you see me and talk to me? do you still wanna see me? do you still think i'm special? what's wrong? why are you pulling the plug? or have you already pulled the plug a long time ago? why are you breaking my heart? why? why can't you just let me know what's on your mind even if it might hurt me? are we friends? are we still friends? do you still see me as more than a friend? can you still see me as more than a friend? do you still like me? do you still love me? did you ever love me? do you feel that i love you? do you KNOW that i love you? do you know that you're hurting me right now? do you know that i cry because of you nowadays? are you deliberately doing this to really hurt me? why? what for? don't you want me anymore? don't you love me anymore? don't you miss me anymore? are you really breaking my heart on purpose? why? why didn't you give us a chance? why didn't you let our love grow? why?
.
.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
...
Unsaid
by Julianne
Do I have to lose you now
So I can gain you some other time?
Do I have to take a bow,
End the show before the curtain call?
Do I have to look the other way
Coz we just got too much to say?
Did it even have to be like this
For you and I? I wanna know why.
Even if I know what I've been told
To let go means to surrender my control.
But it isn't easy to have loved and not survive.
Was is for the wrong reason?
Or maybe the wrong season?
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
Do I have to be broken one last time
So I can be made whole again?
Do I have to be chastised
To be saved and rescued from the fire?
Do I have to be reminded of all this
That I didn't even own a thing to begin with?
No right to claim,
No right to put the blame
On anyone or anything
Even if I know what I've been told
To let go means to surrender my control.
But it isn't easy to have loved and not survive.
Was is for the wrong reason?
Or maybe the wrong season
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
Do I have to watch you go ahead
Leaving me with out a word said?
Do I even get the opportunity to say my plea?
I hope now you're hearing me.
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
I wanted to see the light.
I wanted you to see the light.
I wanted us to see the light.
... Open up your eyes time
To open up our eyes...
by Julianne
Do I have to lose you now
So I can gain you some other time?
Do I have to take a bow,
End the show before the curtain call?
Do I have to look the other way
Coz we just got too much to say?
Did it even have to be like this
For you and I? I wanna know why.
Even if I know what I've been told
To let go means to surrender my control.
But it isn't easy to have loved and not survive.
Was is for the wrong reason?
Or maybe the wrong season?
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
Do I have to be broken one last time
So I can be made whole again?
Do I have to be chastised
To be saved and rescued from the fire?
Do I have to be reminded of all this
That I didn't even own a thing to begin with?
No right to claim,
No right to put the blame
On anyone or anything
Even if I know what I've been told
To let go means to surrender my control.
But it isn't easy to have loved and not survive.
Was is for the wrong reason?
Or maybe the wrong season
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
Do I have to watch you go ahead
Leaving me with out a word said?
Do I even get the opportunity to say my plea?
I hope now you're hearing me.
Coz I wanted this love to grow.
I wanted to see it soar.
I wanted to give a chance for the Sun
To kiss our eyes
So maybe we could see the light
Behind our hearts desires.
I wanted to see the light.
I wanted you to see the light.
I wanted us to see the light.
... Open up your eyes time
To open up our eyes...
Monday, May 19, 2008
Shuffling my Soundtrack - Cool With You (my life according to iTunes)
i am seriously bored.
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
* well... most of it didn't make much sense...
NO CHEATING!
How are you feeling today?
Lonely Days - Eagle Eye Cherry
*oh dear...
Will you get far in life?
Orgia - Ennio Morricone*eh?
How do your friends see you?
You Give Love A Bad Name - Atreyu*ganun?
Will you get married?
Name Fun - Parokya Ni Edgar
*meaning?
What is your best friend's theme song?
Gone - Kanye West
What is the story of your life?
Peggy Gordon - The Corrs
What was high school like?
Secret Lovers - Atlantic Starr
*eh?
How can you get ahead in life?
Monopoly - Rivermaya
*hmmm, and what should i monopolize?
What is the best thing about your friends?
Spider-Man - Ramones
*they're all Spider Man?
What is today going to be like?
Lullaby - Session Road
*really? sana...
What is in store for the weekend?
Doors - Moonstar88
*doors?
What song describes you?
Goodbye - Juana*oh dear again...
How do you describe your grandparents?
This Life - Mandalay
How is your life going?
They Can't Take That Away From Me - Steve Tyrell
What song will they play at your funeral?
Suntok Sa Buwan - Session Road
*ang sad naman
How does the world see you?
Red, Red Wine - Tony Tribe*pwede...
Will you have a happy life?
Just Like A Splendid Love Song - Orange & Lemons*pwedeng pwede...
What do your friends really think of you?
Baliw - Truefaith*totoo naman eh, hehe...
Do people secretly lust after you?
So Beautiful - Savage Garden*ahahahahaha!
How can I make myself happy?
Space Oddity - David Bowie*eh?
What should you do with your life?
If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys*?
Will you ever have children?
Alex's Father - Rachel Portman
*Who's Alex? And who's his father?
How do you picture yourself 5 years from now?
Senamou (C'Est L'Amour) - Angélique Kidjo Feat. Amadou & Miriam*hmmm... i like...
What is best to describe your special someone?
Marrakech - Mishka Adams
What is in store for you in this world?
The Ordertaker - Parokya Ni Edgar*I'll have an ordertaker? pwede din...
What would your life be 10 years from now?
Wishing I Was There - Natalie Imbruglia*double meaning...
Will you be successful?
Moden De - Sugar Hiccup*wish I knew what Moden De meant
How was your childhood?
Nod Your Head - Paul McCartney
*pretty much
What song best describes your mood right now?
Ganjazz - Eraserheads*errr...
How was it answering this survey?
Jesus Walks - Kanye West
What does this year have in store for me?
The Nearness Of You - Steve Tyrell*the nearness of who?
What does your love life look like?
Unwell - MatchboxTwenty
*kainis
What do I say when life gets hard?
Love Is A Victory - The Amaranths
*it always is...
What do I think of when I get up in the morning?
Seniorita - Justin Timberlake
*sana nga one day, haha!
What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Preno - Session Road
*but why?
What do you want as a career?
Champagne Supernova - Matt Pond PA
*hmmm...
Your favorite saying?
If I Neva See You Again - Pink Martini*hmmmmmm...
Favorite place?
You Oughta Know - Alanis Morisette
*of course, i oughta know...
What do you think of your parents?
I'm Your Villain - Franz Ferdinand
*ayayayay
Where would you go on a first date?
No More - Diana Ross*no more first dates?! what the... ? double meaning na naman...
Drug of choice?
It Doesn't Get Better Than This - Kathy Fitzgerald*hmmm... natural high?
Describe yourself.
Samba Da Bencao (Samba Of The Blessing) - Sergio Mendes Feat. Marcelo D2
The song that will be played at your funeral?
Calling - Leona Ness
*parang natanong na to...
What's your Porn star name?
#34 - Dave Matthews' Band*girl #34, hehe...
What is my state of mind like at the moment?
If You Never Come To Me - Bertrand Burgalat
*ang sad na naman...
How will I die?
Love's Divine - Seal
*again, it always is...
The song you'll put as the subject?
Cool With You - Nina
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
* well... most of it didn't make much sense...
NO CHEATING!
How are you feeling today?
Lonely Days - Eagle Eye Cherry
*oh dear...
Will you get far in life?
Orgia - Ennio Morricone*eh?
How do your friends see you?
You Give Love A Bad Name - Atreyu*ganun?
Will you get married?
Name Fun - Parokya Ni Edgar
*meaning?
What is your best friend's theme song?
Gone - Kanye West
What is the story of your life?
Peggy Gordon - The Corrs
What was high school like?
Secret Lovers - Atlantic Starr
*eh?
How can you get ahead in life?
Monopoly - Rivermaya
*hmmm, and what should i monopolize?
What is the best thing about your friends?
Spider-Man - Ramones
*they're all Spider Man?
What is today going to be like?
Lullaby - Session Road
*really? sana...
What is in store for the weekend?
Doors - Moonstar88
*doors?
What song describes you?
Goodbye - Juana*oh dear again...
How do you describe your grandparents?
This Life - Mandalay
How is your life going?
They Can't Take That Away From Me - Steve Tyrell
What song will they play at your funeral?
Suntok Sa Buwan - Session Road
*ang sad naman
How does the world see you?
Red, Red Wine - Tony Tribe*pwede...
Will you have a happy life?
Just Like A Splendid Love Song - Orange & Lemons*pwedeng pwede...
What do your friends really think of you?
Baliw - Truefaith*totoo naman eh, hehe...
Do people secretly lust after you?
So Beautiful - Savage Garden*ahahahahaha!
How can I make myself happy?
Space Oddity - David Bowie*eh?
What should you do with your life?
If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys*?
Will you ever have children?
Alex's Father - Rachel Portman
*Who's Alex? And who's his father?
How do you picture yourself 5 years from now?
Senamou (C'Est L'Amour) - Angélique Kidjo Feat. Amadou & Miriam*hmmm... i like...
What is best to describe your special someone?
Marrakech - Mishka Adams
What is in store for you in this world?
The Ordertaker - Parokya Ni Edgar*I'll have an ordertaker? pwede din...
What would your life be 10 years from now?
Wishing I Was There - Natalie Imbruglia*double meaning...
Will you be successful?
Moden De - Sugar Hiccup*wish I knew what Moden De meant
How was your childhood?
Nod Your Head - Paul McCartney
*pretty much
What song best describes your mood right now?
Ganjazz - Eraserheads*errr...
How was it answering this survey?
Jesus Walks - Kanye West
What does this year have in store for me?
The Nearness Of You - Steve Tyrell*the nearness of who?
What does your love life look like?
Unwell - MatchboxTwenty
*kainis
What do I say when life gets hard?
Love Is A Victory - The Amaranths
*it always is...
What do I think of when I get up in the morning?
Seniorita - Justin Timberlake
*sana nga one day, haha!
What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Preno - Session Road
*but why?
What do you want as a career?
Champagne Supernova - Matt Pond PA
*hmmm...
Your favorite saying?
If I Neva See You Again - Pink Martini*hmmmmmm...
Favorite place?
You Oughta Know - Alanis Morisette
*of course, i oughta know...
What do you think of your parents?
I'm Your Villain - Franz Ferdinand
*ayayayay
Where would you go on a first date?
No More - Diana Ross*no more first dates?! what the... ? double meaning na naman...
Drug of choice?
It Doesn't Get Better Than This - Kathy Fitzgerald*hmmm... natural high?
Describe yourself.
Samba Da Bencao (Samba Of The Blessing) - Sergio Mendes Feat. Marcelo D2
The song that will be played at your funeral?
Calling - Leona Ness
*parang natanong na to...
What's your Porn star name?
#34 - Dave Matthews' Band*girl #34, hehe...
What is my state of mind like at the moment?
If You Never Come To Me - Bertrand Burgalat
*ang sad na naman...
How will I die?
Love's Divine - Seal
*again, it always is...
The song you'll put as the subject?
Cool With You - Nina
Thursday, May 15, 2008
hopefully weary
i'm slowly disarming myself....
i'm pushing myself to face the sun...
i'm trying to open my eyes
to the very blinding light of truth.
i'm slowly opening my hands,
loosening my grasp
when i haven't even
held you enough yet.
i still hope.
i still believe..
i can silently and secretly wait.
still.
i am hurt.
i am sad.
but i find myself blind
even with open eyes.
all because of this heart
that loves you.
.
i'm pushing myself to face the sun...
i'm trying to open my eyes
to the very blinding light of truth.
i'm slowly opening my hands,
loosening my grasp
when i haven't even
held you enough yet.
i still hope.
i still believe..
i can silently and secretly wait.
still.
i am hurt.
i am sad.
but i find myself blind
even with open eyes.
all because of this heart
that loves you.
.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
14 days
i was broken, rambling and ranting.
i was confused, scared to admit that that might be it.
i was reluctant but hopeful still.
i was pushed to move on by people who love me.
i was preparing myself for the possible heartbreak.
i was starting to surrender. and eventually let go.
and then that simple message from you changed everything.
again.
***
you miss me. i know you do.
i miss you too.
.
i was confused, scared to admit that that might be it.
i was reluctant but hopeful still.
i was pushed to move on by people who love me.
i was preparing myself for the possible heartbreak.
i was starting to surrender. and eventually let go.
and then that simple message from you changed everything.
again.
***
you miss me. i know you do.
i miss you too.
.
Monday, April 28, 2008
...
My Greatest Flaw
by D'Sound
Am I such a drooling fool, that all I ever think of is you?
And am I such a ludicrous girl, to make you the center of my world?
Spring time has come and gone again
When my phone rings, I hope that it's you
although I shouldn’t want it to
Because you… you are my greatest flaw
And I’m so ashamed to say, I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
I want to see you then I don’t
I jump into the feelings then I won’t
And when I do you're wasting my time
Trashing what is left of my spine
Summer is playing its greatest hits
Every Friday, I hope that we meet
although I shouldn’t wish for it
Because you… you are my greatest flaw
And I’m so ashamed to say,
I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
Didn’t I tell you so?
Didn’t you even know?
Didn’t I tell you so?
Yes I know…you’re my greatest flaw
Because you…
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
You… You are my greatest flaw…
And I’m so ashamed to say,
I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw…
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
by D'Sound
Am I such a drooling fool, that all I ever think of is you?
And am I such a ludicrous girl, to make you the center of my world?
Spring time has come and gone again
When my phone rings, I hope that it's you
although I shouldn’t want it to
Because you… you are my greatest flaw
And I’m so ashamed to say, I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
I want to see you then I don’t
I jump into the feelings then I won’t
And when I do you're wasting my time
Trashing what is left of my spine
Summer is playing its greatest hits
Every Friday, I hope that we meet
although I shouldn’t wish for it
Because you… you are my greatest flaw
And I’m so ashamed to say,
I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
Didn’t I tell you so?
Didn’t you even know?
Didn’t I tell you so?
Yes I know…you’re my greatest flaw
Because you…
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
You… You are my greatest flaw…
And I’m so ashamed to say,
I’ll do it again everyday
You… You are my greatest flaw…
I know that I am smart, but somebody tell my heart
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
breakfast. kisses. and sniffs
i was really touched when you thought of having breakfast with me last week, sniffer.
even if our work schedule didn't agree, you even thought of having breakfast because you knew it was the only time that we'd be able to meet up.
i felt like you really missed me already.
but the breakfast didn't push through.
it made me sad. did it make you sad?
***
i asked to see you last weekend. you were at work yet you agreed to see me even if you were already tired. i appreciate that.
but when we met up, you were so distant. i don't understand it.
again, i felt that feeling of disconnection, that feeling of just being friends.
don't get me wrong. i'm glad that we are friends. but it was way too casual. way too casual for two people who are supposed to be "dating".
i guess i got so used to you being so sweet and so affectionate in the beginning.
and, now, are you withdrawing it?
***
i asked you if you missed me.
i was just waiting for simple answer, that you did.
but you gave me a sarcastic answer. and i started to get scared.
***
i told you you were becoming a bit distant lately, and you couldn't answer me.
you just whined, laughed and told me we'll just have coffee one of these days.
i felt more scared.
***
when you brought me home, i asked for a hug. twice. i couldn't feel you.
and then i kissed you. on the lips.
and it broke my heart.
because i didn't feel you at all, sniffer.
i didn't feel you respond.
***
why is this happening?
sniffer, please don't break my heart.
at least not this way.
.
even if our work schedule didn't agree, you even thought of having breakfast because you knew it was the only time that we'd be able to meet up.
i felt like you really missed me already.
but the breakfast didn't push through.
it made me sad. did it make you sad?
***
i asked to see you last weekend. you were at work yet you agreed to see me even if you were already tired. i appreciate that.
but when we met up, you were so distant. i don't understand it.
again, i felt that feeling of disconnection, that feeling of just being friends.
don't get me wrong. i'm glad that we are friends. but it was way too casual. way too casual for two people who are supposed to be "dating".
i guess i got so used to you being so sweet and so affectionate in the beginning.
and, now, are you withdrawing it?
***
i asked you if you missed me.
i was just waiting for simple answer, that you did.
but you gave me a sarcastic answer. and i started to get scared.
***
i told you you were becoming a bit distant lately, and you couldn't answer me.
you just whined, laughed and told me we'll just have coffee one of these days.
i felt more scared.
***
when you brought me home, i asked for a hug. twice. i couldn't feel you.
and then i kissed you. on the lips.
and it broke my heart.
because i didn't feel you at all, sniffer.
i didn't feel you respond.
***
why is this happening?
sniffer, please don't break my heart.
at least not this way.
.
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