Beyond the Classroom: Dialogues at Starbucks

If you have time to spare this weekend, have some coffee and conversation with multi-awarded social entrepreneur Illac Diaz. It’s another Dialogues at Starbucks on October 4 at 10.30am at Starbucks Plaza 100.

This time while Illac will talk a bit about his latest endeavors, like the Millennium Schools project, we’re engaging him in conversation about the inspiration behind his latest projects and his unusual approach to Poverty.

See you there!

you don't know me

- I am a fan of the bea-john lloyd loveteam.

- I cried watching The Lion King when i was a kid.

- I'm not crazy about brad pitt nor sam milby.

- I don't like funerals/funeral parlors.

- I only learned how to eat crab and spicy food in Singapore.

- I don’t know how to swim though i love bodies of water.

- The last time I was in Baguio and Davao was more than a decade ago.

- I've never been to Boracay.

Weewilldoodle at Pablo Artist Fair

i guess it's about time.

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And ALL THE STRUGGLES we went through
HOW I LOST ME and YOU LOST YOU
What are these voices outside love's open door
MAKE US THROW OFF OUR CONTENTMENT
AND BEG FOR SOMETHING MORE?

I'VE BEEN LEARNING TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU NOW
But I miss you sometimes
THE MORE I KNOW, THE LESS I UNDERSTAND
ALL THE THINGS I THOUGHT I KNEW, I'M LEARNING THEM AGAIN
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And MY THOUGHTS SEEM TO SCATTER
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
THERE'S A YEARNING UNDEFINED
And people filled with rage
WE ALL NEED A LITTLE TENDERNESS
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the TRUST and SELF-ASSURANCE that lead to happiness
THEY'RE THE VERY THINGS WE KILL, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
BUT I MISS YOU, baby
THE MORE I KNOW, THE LESS I UNDERSTAND
And ALL THE THINGS I THOUGHT I FIGURED OUT, I HAVE TO LEARN AGAIN
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET DOWN TO THE HEART OF THE MATTER
But MY WILL GETS WEAK
And MY HEART IS SO SHATTERED
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

ALL THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO'VE COME AND GONE
THEY LET YOU DOWN, you know they hurt your pride
BETTER PUT IT ALL BEHIND YOU; CAUSE LIFE GOES ON
YOU KEEP CARRYIN' THAT ANGER, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I KNOW IT'S ABOUT FORGIVENESS
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because THE FLESH WILL GET WEAK
And the ashes will scatter
SO I'M THINKIN' ABOUT FORGIVENESS
Forgiveness
EVEN IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE




no bitter pills. it was the first thing i did for you.

instincts and melancholic realizations

i should've listened to my instinct last night.

i already felt that something was gonna happen that night that would make me uneasy. the feeling was just there.

a few minutes after, i saw your car pass by.

i didn't see you. but i saw your car. and it was enough.

i felt like my mind was erased blank all of a sudden. i was trying to listen to my bestfriend talk about his recent discoveries but his words fell on deaf ears. i was not there. i was not ready for any sign of your presence even if i hoped for it.

and i felt really sad all over again.

when i got home, tears started to flow again. and i didn't know what i was crying about exactly.

as i think about it now, i should've listened to my instincts a long time ago.

but i just had to give my poor little heart a chance to feel again. it doesn't happen often anyway.

i guess i gave it too much of a chance.

too much, i allowed it to be stomped on.


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very apt

How do you cool your lips
After a summer’s kiss
How do you rid the sweat
After the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes
From the romantic glare
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you’d know anywhere

Oh, I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive
Insensitive
Insensitive

How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again

Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of vogue, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have
Some advice to give on how to be
Insensitive

I really should have known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes
Your casual good-byes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face
That told me
Maybe You might have some advice to give
On how to be
Insensitive

Insensitive

Insensitive

- by Jann Arden

***

i didn't realize how appropriate this song was for me when i sang this at a party i went to a few nights ago.

and, as i hoped i wouldn't, i cried a river of tears again that night as i was about to go home.

i wanna bury this pain.

i'm slowly digging the grave.


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Your Personality Type: The Dreamy Idealist

Your Personality Type: The Dreamy Idealist

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i wish you couldn't figure me out

but you always wanna know what I was about.

again.

i dreamt of you again last night.

i don't think about you anymore. i try not to.

but you're just there.

and i still cry over you.

and despite the foolishness that i feel for still hanging on, i still hope.

and i still believe.

are you supposed to be here forever?

because it's been painful.


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because of last night.

Out of reach
by Gabrielle

Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be ok

But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you

And now I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach I can see
There’s a life out there for me

***

i allowed myself to be stupid last night.
i pleaded to you.
i swallowed my pride.
i allowed myself to look and seem desperate.
i was.... desperate for a friend, for someone to talk to, for you.

and i had my ego crushed.


i don't matter to you. and i don't deserve this.

but as long as you're still occupying even the farthest crevices of my brain and the deepest recesses of my heart, i will write here.

until you're gone. really gone.


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